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Hawkeye rarely makes his desires unknown, but somehow Phil always has a hard time seeing it coming. He doesn't know why. He's usually pretty good at reading people.

But he feels Hawk below him, held in his grasp, the weight of his body suspended from his--and then he's grasping for Phil, all eyes on him. Only eyes for him. And Phil knows he's handsome, sure. He knew it when he was given a whole news segment with his name on it. He knew it when it took barely an evening to get a hookup. He knew it when Rita kissed him, when Ossie kissed him, when Fever and him tangled into something strange and beautiful. But something about this moment and Hawkeye's unabashed want--it surprises him, still, somehow.

He hovers there. No music, no movement. Trying to figure out if he wants it too.

It didn't always use to feel complicated. Hawkeye doesn't want it to be complicated. He may as well try.

The hand holding Hawk's moves to the back of his neck, talons pressing gently, and he kisses him.

For a moment, Hawk very nearly walks it back. He's not hurt by it- Phil's got a lot going on, he might change his mind, he might not. If there's one benefit to his technique, it's that nothing really feels world-ending when someone says no. Sure, the hot springs incident was incredibly embarrassing, but he recovered. Went on other dates, felt better about himself, didn't take it too hard. Just a misstep. He would have been prepared for this to be a misstep too, just slightly out of time with where Phil is. But he had to get it out there.

Hawk's glad he did. He feels Phil's hand shifting to hold him up, quietly thanks whoever that this is something he has experience with, and shifts his own hand to Phil's cheek.

It's not going to be a lengthy make out session or anything, he's thinking about Phil's back here, but he presses into the kiss eagerly. He's only visited, but he likes Phil's mouth already, he might want to stay for longer next time. Maybe build a vacation house.

When they do separate, Hawk smooths his thumb across Phil's cheek, the corners of his eyes crinkling up.

"I'm starting to think I just like everything involving your mouth."

Phil sinks into the sensation as he kisses back. Some people have plenty of experience and don't get much better, but Hawkeye feels like he took every single encounter as a lecture and took notes. Besides that, though, he's just... warm. He's warm, and human, and real, and not only is his Earth familiar, his history, his personality, his likes and dislikes, and even his body all are too. His hands are rough with years of scrubbing, and holding him feels a little bit like home.

Phil leans back up, pulling them both to standing. Don't mind if he's leaning into Hawk's touch. "That's what they got me on the radio for. You're not half bad yourself." The hand on his neck pulls away to playfully snip his nose.

"So what made you change your mind from 'just a dance?' Was it the French? I first learned it to impress girls, you know."

"Thank you, thank you. Just as soon as the army invents a badge for kissing mouths instead of backsides, I'll be so decorated you could put Christmas presents under me."

Hawk sticks his tongue out when Phil snips his nose.

"What a coincidence, so did I. I'm happy to inform you that it works on the less fair sex. You're the one who dipped and kissed me, Casanova, why don't you tell me what changed? You had your eyes open for at least some of that, so I know you weren't mistaking me for Ginger Rogers."

"You told me you were a good dancer, so I wanted to see you dance, not just shuffle in place," he hums blamelessly. "And then when you asked me to kiss you, I thought, well, sure. I could do that. Why not? So I did."

His eyes flick aside, an almost bashful motion. He'd move his head if he didn't think it'd make Hawk take his hand away. "And, uh... it was good."

Hawk's face squinches up into his cat expression. You know the one, the one where he looks smug, like he got the canary and the cream at the same time. He places a kiss carefully on Phil's cheek.

"I'm sure I've had people think nicer things when I kiss them, but I'll take it," he teases. Well and truly back in his wheelhouse, if that touch of demure bashfulness is anything to go by. Hawk eases his hands back into how they were when they were dancing, only this time pressing closer, cheek to cheek.

"I'm an award winning shuffler-in-place, too. Won regional championships."

His aftershave is still lingering from when he shaved earlier, something masculine in an abstract way, but he got a nice close shave for Phil. Just in case they got this close.

"It's my third favourite pastime," and his eyes flick reflexively to check if the kitchen curtain is closed.

The more affectionate Hawk gets, the more he finds himself leaning into it. His eyes shut with a satisfied squint when he kisses his cheek, and when they press closer again, there’s a very, very quiet sound from the back of his throat that may or may not have been something like a pigeon coo.

Phil’s definitely got a slightly pricier cologne on. Nothing opulent, not to mention he’s trying to save to support the new household, but there’s a sense of sophistication there. He’s a man who likes expense, though he’d hardly demand it of someone else.

He just basks in Hawkeye. His warmth, the smell of his aftershave, the landscape of his skin.

“Yeah? What’re the other two? Shuffling out of place and placing in shuffles?”

Good to know he's reading Phil right, that the touch and contact is welcome. He wonders to himself if it's been a while since he got it casually, that sort of thoughtless touch that couples just do. Phil's a widower, after all, and you don't really get used to not having it once you've lost it.

It's just all good. Really, just being close to Phil is fantastic, as good as he imagined back at the hot springs. He smells like Hawk should've submitted his credit before getting this close, and that's kind of exciting in its own way. Lots of things about Phil are.

He laughs again, leaning into Phil to answer-

"If I can convince you to stay the night, you can find out."

He may as well shoot his shot. If not, he'll be happy like this, but if so... he might be lucky to leave Phil's bones behind when he's done. This want is maddening, it's all he can think about, this close to him. Another kiss to his cheek, just to hear that cute pigeon noise again.

Hawk’s just reward is another little coo. Phil shifts, readjusting his hold on him.

Could he imagine it? Oh, easily. He’d love to try, even, but as they turn, he catches sight of the disorganized pile with a blanket over it in the corner of the room. Hawk’s sanitary, no doubt, but. Mm. He did say he wanted to get his head straight first.

“Maybe some other time, ehn? I should probably be at the house tonight, but… I can be out late. I’ll help you with the dishes. For now, let’s stay like this.”

Hawk does a couple of mental calculations and works out what Phil's looking at, exhaling just slightly. Not disappointment- not entirely- but frustration at himself. If he wasn't doing bad, he could probably have ridden this all the way to the terminal destination. It's probably better that they save it for when Hawk can properly appreciate it rather than just use it as a distraction from feeling rotten. Phil will leave, and then Hawk will sink back down into some nice luxurious misery while he thinks about everyone who's missing and gone from him. That's just who he is now, someone who has to stay in motion.

Still, Hawk's voice takes on a tone of seriousness for a moment.

"How'd you know doing the dishes was one of the two?" he asks.

May as well enjoy what he's got while he has it, so he stays where he is. Hawk isn't a difficult man to please, he's a creature of very simple pleasures, and having someone to squeeze is among the most perfect of them. Phil's warmth, the way being so close sets tingles off across his skin, of the slight friction between them. What a fantastic distraction. He closes his eyes and tries to soak in as much of it as he can.

He does wish they actually had a way to play music here. Then he could just shut up and focus on holding Hawkeye against himself without worrying about the dead silence or trying to fill it.

"You don't have to try that hard. I like you well enough already." Just to prove his point, he pecks a kiss under his eye.

"Who's trying hard? I'm always this charming."

That's a lie and they both know it, but he squeezes his eyes shut like a pleased cat at the kiss.

"I think you missed."

"Then I'll try again," he says, and pressing him closer at the waist, comes in for a soft landing.

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